Thunderstorms of Life

Good Afternoon!!! I hope you have all had a most fabulous day!

Today as the rain came and the thought that I could actually use my most awesome new birthday umbrella, made me very happy. I came home this morning from dropping the kids off at school and that is when it began. Soon my youngest and I had been under the umbrella and enjoying the sound of the pitter patter of raindrops on the umbrella. Soon the Thunder and Lightning came and my daughter watched in amazement. She was fascinated with it. It was so wonderful to figure out that she appreciated it as much as I did. We had lots of fun time under that umbrella today. We took it everywhere we went.  c

I can certainly appreciate a weather storm as we had today. I can not say the same for my oldest daughter, who is terrified of them.  I am beginning to understand how much we need to appreciate the thunderstorms of our lives. How is that I can love a thunderstorm with the lightning and not be afraid, but when it comes to life and the leaps of faith we often have to take, scare me to pieces? I don't know. I am working on that.

What are some thunderstorms in your life that you are afraid of??

*finding a new job
*having sufficient needs to pay all our bills
*finding the strength to believe in the healing plan of our savior
*Loving life and accepting that the past can not change
*Participating in my own life
*Forgiving

How about each of you, I mean SOMEONE has to be reading my blog...at least I hope someone is, What are your Thunderstorms?? I am just curious if I am the only one in the world who feels the same way.

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Bittersweet happiness!

You know, today turned out to be a pretty good day. I had my last PTA meeting (well as president, I will still be part of the PTA), I had a WHOLE hour to myself while my daughter went to preschool, I took my youngest to a play date at a park with a good friend,  I got a little bit of laundry done, the garbage taken out, and then went and picked the kids up from school and took them to Piano, then I came home, helped the kids get their homework done, and then took my boy to scouts. Yeah it has been a fairly uneventful day.

While I was dropping my son off at the church, I saw the sister missionaries. I have been working with them a lot lately, and they have become very dear friends to me. I was told that one of the sisters will be going home NEXT WEEK! What a wonderful person she is. I am so glad she gets to go home, but I will miss her.

I have truly enjoyed spending time with the sisters, having them over for dinner and going on companion exchanges with them. It has truly blessed my life. I have been able to take them places and attend many baptisms with them. I truly hope that will continue. I really love it.

I do worry though that when the sisters change I won't get called anymore, but hopefully that won't happen.

So I am happy that today turned out to be better and that the positive thinking did eventually get here and the day is ending well.

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I think I may have awaken on the wrong side of the bed!

Holy Negativity Batman!!! Man, when you are super tired and frustrated and things just aren't going your way, your thoughts get super negative....I am pretty sure I was upset for a good hour after waking up today. Makes it hard to get positive clicks...I am pretty sure I had so many negative thoughts this morning that I am now in the super negative numbers......we are talking double digits people!

Alas, finally I was able to get a few things done and now that it has passed, I am going to work harder to think positive. I am going to do this and if it helps me to feel happier then it is totally worth it!

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SUPER DE DUPER!!!

Normally on any other day, I would ignore my alarm clock and just lay in bed for 10 more minutes! Today was different......Today I had a very excited little girl in my room at 5:45 BEGGING me to get out of bed so we were not late leaving for her field trip to the State capitol and Natural history museum. Today I spent time with her and 3 of her classmates, they figured out I was scared of spiders and that was quite entertaining to them....I however do not think it was funny AT ALL. Today I got to know some of the kids from her class better and I saw some sweet things happen. One little boy wanted to call and let his mom know we were on our way home, so I let him use my cell phone to do so. He called and left a message telling his mom that we were leaving and how much he loved her and that he couldn't wait to tell her about the trip. It was sooooo cute! Anyway, it was just so much fun to get to know these kids.

After we returned from the field trip, I took the kids to the Literacy night at our school where they won several door prizes, none of which are good without a Yo-Yo so now I am on the market for a professional yo yo that won't cost me an arm and a leg.

After the Literacy night, I brought the kids home, had them start on their homework and then headed to a R.S. meeting where I talked about having FHE with Elementary aged school children. It went much better than I had anticipated. I enjoyed talking about it. I think the information was taken very well.

After that, as if today couldn't get any better, I had a training meeting for being on the TIME OUT FOR WOMEN team. If  you don't know what that is, leave me a comment and I will clue you in on the most SUPER DE DUPER thing in the world! I am so very excited to be a part of this and would recommend this to ANY AND ALL of my dear friends. If you have been you can attest to that, if you have not, I promise that it is SUPER DE DUPER worth it!

And so on that note, and at 12:07 in the A.M., I am going to go to bed, happy  because of all the wonderful things I experienced today.

p.s. I GOT MY CLICKER in the mail today!!!!! I may be a bit excited, I logged 185 positive thinking clicks today and I only started at 5 p.m. Things are looking good!

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Oh my goodness! I get it!!!

Is it just me, or do you not just LOVE the moment in time that you figure something out. You know as that lightbulb clicks on above your head. I had one of those AHA moments today. It was great! I was thinking about how much darkness I had been through, and I was thinking about the post from last night and it hit me!

WE ALL have to go through a MIST OF DARKNESS as we hold to the IRON ROD before we get to the TREE!

Some of you may think, Yeah, DUH, I knew that but I have never felt more happy to realize that in my life. I don't know why such a simple thing would affect me the way it did today, but I am glad to say that it makes PERFECT SENSE now and I am happy it came to me the way it did and the time it did as well.


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We must go through the darkness to appreciate the light

I often think about how much my life has changed over the last few years. I have learned many things in these few years. Many of which can not be shared here. Others, however, can be and I am here to tell you that it is very insightful when you are on this side of a trial, to be telling of the other side!

There was one day, I remember pretty clearly, that I decided I had done enough here on earth and no matter how hard I tried to convince myself, NO ONE would really miss me if I were gone. I was frustrated, it was cold, wet, and raining....a downpour if you will, and I was out on a walk. I didn't want to go home because of the frustrations and I thought it would be easier to just catch pneumonia and wither from existence. Other things happened that night and I recall thinking so deeply that no one would even know I was gone.    However, there was a little voice....small to say the least, that told me I was wrong. That I was needed and for one small second I believed it. One teeny tiny second....and that is all it took for me to turn around and go home.

It was soon after that in which I decided going to get help would not be a bad thing. I was at the lowest I had ever been in my life (which was pretty low)  and I couldn't do it on my own. I knew that I needed to ask. Asking had never been easy for me, but after that night, I had no choice.

People were called and spoken to, I found the strength to make appointments and call doctors and get the medications and the appointments I needed to start working on what would be some of the hardest times of my life. It wasn't easy. Often times I found myself wondering why I was even trying. For some reason I kept holding on. I kept working hard and trying to do better. Eventually it got easier, I found myself fighting to remain alive.

This isn't new information to most of you, as you know I was really bad off. Some may be wondering when and what really happened, and if you really want to know, feel free to ask me, I will tell you. Just know I will not sugar coat it.

My point is not even in the story I have just told you, but in the principle of the story. I didn't get anywhere without learning how.

I often say I will go back to school, to be honest with you, I am not sure if that will happen right now. I don't know why, but it just isn't the time. I want to continue learning and I know that I can not learn by just sitting here. There were times in those trials that learning was very important. I had to learn a lot to make it through them. I didn't do it alone. I had a master teacher, who through messengers, helped me to learn and grow. I became who I am today by going through these trials.

I do often look back on those times and wonder. I wonder what would have happened if I didn't get help. I wonder if I would have done something different in my life, if things would have been easier. I wonder a lot of things, but what it comes down to is that in life, you need trials to grow.

I honestly can not imagine my life without the many trials I have endured. I have seen a lot of things in my life, some people know about, others people have no clue. I have taken something from each trial and applied it to my life, I am becoming who I was meant to become.  I am very happy about that.

Looking back is hard sometimes, you see all the faults and mistakes you have made, you see the bad things that have happened to you, the heartaches, the frustrations, but now, for me I see the tender mercies that I have been given to make it through this life to the next.

So what is my point in all of this?? Trials will make you grow. Sometimes things may seem to be going against you, no matter how hard you are trying, and other times the wind may be at your back....just remember that you are who you are because of your trials and not just that but because of how you ENDURED through your trials. I hope to continue to endure through my trials. I know that sometimes they seem very heavy and daunting, but I know that if I continually turn to the Lord with Faith in prayer that I will have the strength to make it through.

So today as I reflect on the many dark times I faced in the past, I must remember this, that sometimes it takes a journey through a really dark place to really appreciate the Light!

Love, Me

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Today while the sun shines!

Today while the sun shines, I am going to enjoy the day I have off. I am done working for the summer, unless by some miracle a job comes open that works with my schedule so my kids don't have to be home alone or with a sitter.

My plans for today are simple. ENJOY THE SUN!

Today has been a good day so far. I did 2 loads of laundry so far, and I have succeeded in writing in the kids MOMMY and ME journals.

I have had some amazing things happen and I will post about them soon.

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