Maybe today is just a day of sorrow

I have had a rough day today. I read about a friend who lost his Nephew in Law of 27. No one knows why and they have very few answers. I can imagine how hard it must be to hear news of that nature. I have been there. I have a good friend who lost her husband a few years ago and I remember hearing the news on the phone and thinking, this is too much. What happened? Why? What is my friend going to do? How can I help her? I live in Utah, she lives in OHIO! I felt helpless. I felt useless. Today is no different. I can't help my friend, he barely knows me. I wish there was something I could say to make it all better but having been through many losses in the last year I know that NOTHING I say can make the pain go away.

Today was also hard for me emotionally. In October I found out I lost my baby, well today I found out that the day I found out about losing my baby, another friend was in the hospital having a D&C. Had I known she was dealing with that I would have been able to go to her and give her a hug but I was wallowing in my own pain and feeling pity for myself. The sorrow of finding out you have lost something that means so much to you is so hard. As my friend was talking about this during the Testimony part of Relief society, I could no longer hold in my tears. I had held in my tears for so long that they just flowed.

So I have nothing happy to say today. Just know that I am still on my mission, it is just taking a small detour today. I am keeping my friend in my prayers and those who have had to deal with a loss at any time in their lives. You know who you are. I love you all greatly.